HeartTalk "Surfing"

Chuch.

What's up man! How you doing up there in that wrinkly tired brain of yours? I just thought I'd write you something quick because I'm about to explode from all the unnecessary stress you've been putting on me. If you throw down any more I may have a heart attack and that wouldn't be good one bit. You got to stop overthinking man. 

You just gotta be chill and go with the flow of things cause thats the only way you can take this world on. Just surf the sea of things around you, don't try to cut hard or you'll catch edge and if you do... Get back up and paddle on big man. You got this, just be calm, be strong, be loyal and everything will work out in the end.

Sincerely

Your Heart

Blue Ticket: "Moonless Nights"

You Mr. Moon are my protector. Beams of your light are always shining in my darkest nights, leading me, guiding me, and holding my hand ever so tightly so I don't wander through the trees. I love when you carry me through splintered paths, but sometimes I want my feet to get cracked and bloody. Believe it or not, but sometimes I want a "moonless night". One where I can't see and fear drives into my chest like a full dagger. You need to understand that I have to be stabbed in order to feel happiness. I cannot know one without the other. SO LEAVE MR. MOON! Get out of here! And let me bleed from the dry heels of my feet. Let the gashes become infected only so that I can cleanse them later. My arms are wide and my chest is open. Knock the wind out of me a couple times so I know that kiss of air. Break my ribs and tear my skin from the belly button up so I know my untarnished body. I will always be fascinated by scarlet juice. Always. If I fall too low, please take my hand and hold it ever so tightly. Ever so tightly.

Instructions on Knowing an Angel

1. Clean your soul of the darkness that has dwelled there in the past.
2. Improve or obtain some of the attributes that you would like to see in your life.
3. Pray that you will find her, and she will find you.
4. Ask all the girls you think maybe the angel on dates.
5. As you discover more about each of them, discover which one is most likely the angel
6. Start to focus all dating efforts on this girl.
7. Get to know her so well that there is no doubt that she is the angel
8. Fall in love with her
9. Sit in your car on a Sunday and realize how lucky you are, this will happen many nights so get ready cause it's overwhelming.
10. Be present with her always, treat her like the angel she is, love her for who she is.
11. Never lose her.

Feels Like I've Been Buried Alive.

bloop bloop

bloop bloop

bloop bloop

If you didn't already know that is the sound of my heart shoving blood through my veins, because right now they are wide open.

Like tunnels running underneath my dry earthy skin, it holds the secrets to life unknown.

The blood within them feeds my limbs so that I may act in kindness, but sometimes I betray their trust.

My heart, the center of it all feels happiness and sadness and this is how I know I'm alive.

I feel numb though now. Like I can't speak right. Like I've been buried alive.

Laying the Bricks

Bricks are the core of everything.

The building blocks that stacked upon eachother in the right way, can create something beautiful.

Bricks are the beginning, the end, and everything in between.

They built my fathers company from the ground up,

And built my family from broken to everything it is now.

The more bricks that have been laid down. 

The more tears will fall down when the walls are broken.

Just watch who you lay bricks with, because sometimes people will break big walls to easily.

Margret's Dare

She said I wouldn't do it. She said I wouldn't do it
Little did she know that I would, and I could.

In the rocky mountains of Colorado lives a boy who loves her.
I know this from the 3 a.m. talks I've had with him and the way he speaks her name.
She doesn't believe me though, because she loves him as well.
She won't admit it though because she doesn't want her heart torn to pieces.
But she doesn't know what will happen, and it looks like a bright future for her.

Sorry.

These Things Are How You Make Me Feel

these things are how you make me feel.

like a child lost in a storm, a storm of love that has never been experienced.
where smoke covers the earth and sometimes the night sky has no stars.
I search for the light, until I realize it's two feet in front of me.

these things are how you make me feel.

like a fire that burns in my heart and cleanses all the fear with its radiant heat.
The fire is calm and beautiful and runs through every fiber of my body when we're together.
It is the gasoline to my mind and my heart, assisting me in going only partially insane.

these things are how you make me feel.

like I've been kidnapped and thrown into a van thats filled with warmth and kisses.
Where I can shed my skin and be comfortable inside my own flesh.
Where my words can truly be listened to and thoughts interpreted,
and my soul can speak all it's feelings without a filter.

these things are how you make me feel.

like the first man on earth to finally find the end of the rainbow,
except I didn't find a pot of gold, but rather all the riches of the world.
I never knew life could get this good, feel this right, until now.

I love you,

J. Nemo